While working at home today, I took my shirt off and worked out in my bra and skirt. How Liberating! Even though I could see my stomachs hanging down while in plank I felt GOOD!
I feel so good about ALL OF ME that I am going to do something really brave and share my flubby bits to show you that you can be ok with ALL of yourself.
|So this is me in my fav workout outfit, wearing my signature BUBBLE top, I like them because they hide the flubby tummy. But wait for it....|
|Not so bad, sort of holding it in...|
|ok really holding it in...|
|Back happy with...there was one rolls of back flab back there....|
|Ok here it goes...there's the pouch...really wish I could at least carry my keys in there and ipod while running?|
|And the WHAT THE FARK IS THAT? is that a tongue? a boob? no that's my flubby tummy hanging out in downward dog. That took skill to take that pic I tell you!|
Don't let the pouch fool you, there are abs of steel under there! Seriously you should see me rock the plank and swing around like a monkey in the TRX.
This is the soft bit on me that my daughter Kasey loves to put her hands on for comfort and that wiener dog uses as a pillow..how can that not be loved?
Seriously, I can't tell you how much better I feel about myself of late. I'm working on taking the best care of myself as I can. I've been focusing on my nutrition again. But not in a cut back type of way, in a how can I best fuel this body of mine way. I've been using My Fitness Pal again with success. I've been eating an average of about 2100-2300 cals a day, and well to be truthful a lot more on the weekends (I do love my wine). But its not the the calorie count that matters it's what I am eating that matters, and I've been power packing the nutritious foods in during the week. I still need to find a bit more balance on the weekends between enjoying wine and some treats and not going overboard.
I could say that much of that hanging pouch is what losing 95 pounds looks like, excess skin and all. But there's fat there too and a good bit of it. I suspect I could change the look of my abs with a "cleaner diet" and gasp no wine! But in all honesty I don't want to go to the extremes that I would need to get those abs. My mind doesn't work well there. And the thing is I am happy with my body, as close as I likely will get with being confident naked and not having surgery or drastic diet changes. (I think it's ok to choose those things, they just aren't for me).
I do have work to do, I need to rein the WINE TRAIN in,at the seemingly many social events on my calendar. I need to find the balance between enjoying and not over indulging. I feel like I am figuring that stuff out.
I have come so very far from the girl that once avoided the mirror at all costs, and when she did look, only looked at herself with one eye open. Now I can look, jiggle my belly, and smile :)