Friday, October 19, 2012

Halloween Candy: Avoiding the Horror of the Binge

Halloween candy is already calling my name.  Its 3:00 pm and I find myself in shoppers, hitting the dreaded energy dive bomb, it's then that the howls and cackles from the halloween candy isles start calling my name.  The pull is so strong! This morning I was in the grocery store, having just finished up my workout and my glycogen stores were screaming at the candy corn...JUMP IN MY MOUTH! There is just something about HALLOWEEN candy that does my mind in.  I don't get like this at Easter and Christmas.  Yes, I indulge in the sweets but this obsessive  mouth watering pull seems to only come with Halloween.  

In years past I would succumb to the brightly colored boxes and buy the stuff early, I would "hide it" so I wouldn't eat it.  YEAH RIGHT!  I would then find myself balanced on a kitchen chair scarfing down PB cups and Twix bars from the back of the closet top shelf.  Or going into the cold garage for perfectly chilled choc bars....shaking my head. 

 So I find myself sitting here, reflecting and coming up with a plan to avoid the binge and guilt cycle this year.  I was looking at old halloween pictures and have to admit that this one really "surprised me." This picture is from two years ago, and at the time I was about 5 months into my new active life, working out 5-6 days week.  I had lost maybe 20-25 pounds?  I remember buying that halloween outfit and feeling so good about myself. For the first time in a long time I was ok with "showing myself".  Oh lord, I did not realize though that it showed so much of my giant hooters! LOL.  That was a good halloween, I indulged but not over board, and didn't feel guilty with what I did eat because of my activity level.  I wasn't overly obsessed with the candy, and found a good balance.  

oh my good lord my boobs were huge, I miss them LOL
Fast forward to the following year and I was close to my maintenance weight, and very focused on the losing part of my "journey".  I tended to avoid the candy at all costs, thinking of it as a "not allowed" food.  BAD IDEA!  Doing so gave the candy so much more power over me and I found myself obsessing about it.  Ryan was travelling a lot at that point and I found myself alone for a week, with two young kids testing the very limits of my patience.  The days were stressful and I found I started fantasizing about eating the candy.  For some stupid reason I had once again bought candy early and had it in the house.  I remember that week alone, was a very hard and difficult time for me for so many reasons.  I remember rushing the kids to bed one night and coming down stairs and making a giant pile of chocolate bars that I was going to eat.  I stared at it.  My anxiety was rising through the roof.  I bagged up the candy and threw it out, well that bit of it.  I had too.  I sat on the couch and talked myself out of the binge.  I called Ryan and talked to him.  I said a prayer. I narrowly escaped that binge.  The next night I found myself in that very same scenario.  I have a blog post written about it somewhere.  I faced down some demons that week.  I won the big battles but did lose out to some smaller binges of 5 or 6 little choc bars, little binges that led to big ugly guilt and renewed promises to not touch the candy.  Last halloween was very much the picture of someone that was stuck in an all or nothing, black and white kind of thinking pattern.  



So what will this year look like?  I think I will be taking a page from that busty girl's picture.  I will find a happy medium between some indulgences and putting down the candy bag.  I will wait to the last minute to buy the candy. I will decide ahead of time how much I will have.  When I find myself in Shoppers Drugmart itching like a drug addict for candy, I will buy my favourite Lindt Dark Chocolate bar and eat that.  I will dress up in costume and trick or treat with my kids, and watch really bad horror movies with my husband while eating this treat.  I have been eyeing it up on Pinterest for awhile.  I figure, why not, make something special enjoy it and get back to the sweating and chia seed eating after halloween.  


Super hero with binge fighting powers! 

Recipe 



26 comments:

  1. Candy isn't normally my biggest temptation, I don't like too many kinds or too much of it. Except for the Halloween I was pregnant with my fourth and bought the candy early like always and ATE IT ALL before Halloween. All. And yes, I 'hid" it from myself and climbed my pregnant ass up on a chair to get it down. Crazy. Not sure that I'd do that again, but from now on I only buy Halloween treats that I don't like. Come trick or treating at my house if you want Doritos or Nibs :)

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  2. I'll take the nibs :) and I am laughing at the pic of your preg butt up on the chair :)

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  3. I love that you have a plan;) I will be giving out pencils like I did last year. All the kids were like, "wow, cool, a pencil', seriously it even surprised me. I totally thought we were going to get egged! After the boys got home and I had a chance to sort through their stash, I gave away all the stuff we didn't want/couldn't have to the trick or treaters, ha! Don;t worry I let them keep quite a bit and had a few myself;)

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    1. We had the SWITCH WITCH come last year..they kept their favorite 10-12 pieces and the rest was left for the Switch Witch and they got a wee pressie. So much better then having a 2 giant bags of candy left in the house.

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  4. We always do the last minute candy buy, and never have enough. But, that is ok. One year, I will follow through on my plan to buy some public swim vouchers for the City to give out. I remember getting McDonalds coupons when I was a kid.

    WE do not buy candy until the day before. If we didn't wait, it would never make it to the 31st. Never. We bought a box of candy bars at Hershey one year for Christmas gifts... it made it to October, maybe.

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  5. I LOVE this post Katie! Im a moderation girl, and is "go 'round" in lifestyle change and diet and fitness, I decided WAY back that it would be my focus. ALL things in moderation-fitness and food. If i feel like working out is a "chore"-I'll slack off. If i outlaw foods or food groups, I'll crave them more. So, with thtis ideology, I workout, and I eat chocolate bars. Sometimes I dont do either, sometimes I do both. For me, personally, thats living life, andits sustainable for the long haul. I bougght some Halloween stuff awhile back,mputitnin the cupboard and therei it sits. I love me some Nibs, and I'll definitely be having some once Halloween is here.

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  6. I love all your costumes. One thing that's remained steady in all the pics is that awesome smile of yours.

    Candy doesn't howl & cackle at me, but pie and fresh baked cookies sure do. This should make the upcoming holidays VERY interesting...

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