Here's this month's Move More, Eat Well post, you can see January's here.
Ok now to the real meat of it...how do I really feel?
I feel strong and fit!
I am still having a lot of fun doing this MOVING and SWEATING THING..and I have such great friends to enjoy it with
BUT I AM HUNGRY...(and trust me I am not holding back average cal intake is 2200ish)
I GET ON THE SCALE EVERY DAY...I don't like that anymore
I record everything I eat (accept on weekends)...
I am TIRED of the "WEIGHT" part of this journey....and how its WEIGHS ON ME.
I started the year thinking, yeah I lost 100 pounds now to maintain and get defined and hey run a marathon too...
But I still get on the scale every day like I have for the past 6 months or so (since buying the damn thing) expecting and waiting for that loss...but I am not in a "losing" mode (ie. eating to lose weight)...so I get a bit frustrated.
It's time to let go of the scale and My Fitness Pal...and give my "spirt" a break. Its time to try and TRUST my body, that it knows what it needs. That it knows what it needs to run 16km on Sat!
I am kind of nervous about this, but I know its time and that I need too to save my sanity. The last few days I have been so hungry (bored hungry) at home with a sick kid..and I have felt trapped by my calorie count. I shouldn't. I should be able to eat a healthy snack, satisfy myself and move on. I should not be waking up in the am and dragging myself out of bed just to see what the scale says.
I am doing this, to see if I can really live the party line I keep toting, which is to BE HEALTHY, TO LOVE AND TRUST YOURSELF. TO BE KIND TO YOURSELF.
and to CELEBRATE...I am going out for dinner to enjoy a delcious dinner, to stop when I am full, and to drink a glass of wine.
Wish me luck :)