Saturday, November 26, 2011

10 more miles to go....

I have 10 more miles to go to meet my goal of 50 miles in November, a challenge issued by my favorite runner/scrapper Cathy, on Daily Mile.    I think I might actually make this goal, which is great because last week I felt like it was a mountain to climb. Its no secret that I have been struggling with running of late.  Like I have done so often in my life, I get close to a goal and I start to self sabotage myself.  This time around its the mere 'thought' of goal that seems to have sent me cowarding in the corner.

So today I set out with a plan, a plan to run 15km.  My thinking is that when I was training for the Army Half, 15km was my first real run of any great distance.  It was a special number for me and it became my 'base' of sorts.  I figured if I can keep that base, the thought of moving into Full Marathon training in January will no longer be so daunting.  So today with the help of a friend by my side, I did 15km, and you know what it felt great!  It felt really good in fact.  Even better, mentally, I feel back in the game.  I feel confident again.

I've been thinking a lot of late, about running a marathon and what that means to me.  Its been a life long dream.  A I don't think I ever actually thought I would do it!  But having run the half marathon this year and having it rank in amongst the best days of my life (birth of the kids, wedding and half marathon that's the order) it seems silly to not go for it all!  When I think of running it, I picture my kids waiting for me at the finish line and I get teary.  I want the kids and Ryan to record messages to me to add to my playlist along the way.  I figure if I get this emotional just picturing the finish line, its a sign that I need to do this.


Monday, November 21, 2011


Nothing like finding an old picture of yourself, in your 'larger' days to motivate you to hold strong and keep up the hard work.  I was looking through pictures of this time last year, looking for pics of the kids putting up the tree and I came across this.  I have to tell you that it is somewhat 'shocking' to myself...I remember feeling so good about myself here..having lost 40ish pounds..I felt like I was really fit (working out hard running and spinning).
I had to wear two bras back then to hold those suckers down LOL
The funny thing is, I did feel good, but I was stuck.  Despite having lost a bunch of weight, and working out consistently 5-6 days a week, I had plateaued.  A lot of that was due to the fact that I was still eating what I pleased 2-3 days a week (ie. really overeating), I was eating a lot of processed food, and I was doing almost pure cardio with very little strength training.

I took this picture today a year later...and 3 pounds away from having lost 100 pounds!  Difference is nutrition (focus on whole foods, high protein, complex carbs, healthy fats) and strength training!
So this is my motivation to keep at it, because its not that bad, really it isn't.  This really has translated into a lifestyle for me and for our family.  You all know I love the exercise bit and the nutrition part isn't that bad at all.  I really enjoy the food that I am making (except for that pea soup disaster) and I like how eating this way makes me feel.  Greek Yogurt is my friend :)  I am easing into a maintenance mode and 'relaxing' on the weekends.  Overall, I have to say its going really well.  So remind me that the next time I feel like skipping my weight workout, would you?

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Need to finish what I started

I was supposed to run 50 miles in November, as part of a daily mile challenge I signed up for.  I have only run 21 and its passed the half way point.  I am usually really good at being on the ball when I set a goal in my mind.  But for some reason I have been slacking on the running a lot of late.  Not to say that I have been sedentary I have been weight training more than ever before, and had also gotten into a good Hot Yoga streak.  I think part of my problem is that after so many race goals to train for I felt free to just play with my workouts and break out of the boredom of my routine.  It felt really good to 'choose' what I felt like doing rather than knowing it was Wednesday HILL day.  But on the downside I think I may have 'played' a little too hard and last week found myself feeling the effects of over training.  I wasn't recovering well from my workouts (muscle soreness persisting), and my workouts were much weaker than normal.  This led to taking last weekend off entirely, not even a stretch to be seen. I must admit it felt good (really good).  This week was challenging as I was kept from my 'happy place' (aka the gym) with the two sick kiddies to take care of.  I managed to squeeze in two evening workouts (not my favorite time of the day to workout) and even one at home workout (again not ideal but you make it work).  By Thursday my lovely children had passed their germs on to me and I felt myself feeling less than my usual 'rainbows and sunshine' self.  Normally, I would have pushed through anyway, with a sniffles and snot aren't going to hold me back can do attitude.  But this time knowing I was coming out of an 'overtrain' I thought lets just take it easy this time, and so I did.  Again it felt really good to rest.  Friday I felt well 'enough' to join a friend at the gym for a workout, but coupled with a late night out I think it did me in and I woke up this morning feeling wheezy and awful.  So once again, I have 'benched' myself to rest.  I am really hoping that this 'rest' fixes me up and I am back to my usual 'endorphin seeking' self by Monday.
Because I need to finish what I started!  I need a plan!  As much fun as this 'fly by the seat of my pants' exercising has been, I feel out of sorts without a concrete goal and mini goals to test myself with.  I like the feeling of going after something, and I really like the feeling of achieving lets say 26 miles.
So Ryan if your listening I really want one of these for my birthday!
Ryan you can find it here :)

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

LIO Post: Finding my true strength

I have a post up on the Losing it in Ottawa blog today, this was a tough one to write.....

In other news....I'm about to make breaky cupcakes with the kids...yes folks you heard right BREAKFAST CUPCAKES :) LOL

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Rest days

This is where I would like to be today, can you imagine a sweet day spent curled up in this bed with a good teen vamp book, some Starbucks, and nothing but sweet quiet time to yourself?  Since my bed doesn't look like this, and more importantly I am not going to have sweet quiet time to myself, I am dedicating this day to some rest.  I took the day off working out yesterday, even canceled a gym date with my good gym buddy.  I listened to my body and my mind for that matter and rested, and it felt GOOD! So good that I am taking today off too. I am hoping to scrapbook a little, read a bit, and maybe just maybe get a nap in.  Wishing you all a happy Sunday, hopefully with your own restful moments. 

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Eat when your hungry, stop when your full

Eat when your hungry, stop when your full.

Sounds pretty simple, but for many of us we lost the ability do this as children.   In the last year and a half I have gotten much better at recognizing when I am truly hungry and when I am not.  Knowing that I am not really hungry for chips, but rather something to do because I am bored, or that what I am really hungry for is a drug to calm me down after the kids push all the wrong buttons.  When I am hungry, I eat.  I try to eat nutritious food.  I try to stop when I am full.  When I am not hungry I am usually able to stave off eating....sometimes until I have convinced myself that I am really hungry and actually made my tummy rumble (oh the power of the mind).

Lately, I find myself truly hungry much more then normal.  I am working out hard as always, but I have changed things up a bit, I am lifting heavy weights, and doing more interval training, as well as hot yoga.  All of which crank up the old metabolism.  So I have done what your supposed to do and eaten and for the most part have eaten healthy nutritious food that will help me preform better.  I've mentioned before, that one of the tools that I have been using to help me loose weight is a program called My Fitness Pal (MFP).  Basically, its an online tool where I can track calories in and calories out.  I struggled a bit with the program when I first started using it because I went to the crazy place.  I took a little break, had a stern talk with myself and was able go back to useing it with great results.  I even had Ryan using it too, for awhile.  As I get closer to my goal weight (93 pounds lost...7 to go...funny enough 158 pounds  puts me at a normal BMI) I am trying to find more balance and to ease my way into more of a 'maintenance' kind of mode.  I am relaxing on weekends, enjoying wine, and foods that are higher in calories in moderation.

But I am increasingly beginning to think that MFP is no longer right for me, at least for now.  This past week, as I mentioned I found myself very hungry and almost every day I was at 1200 cals by 1:00 in the afternoon.  Now those 1200 cals were packed with protein, complex carbs, healthy fats, and fiber (trying my best to stick to a whole foods diet).  I am fairly certain my body needed those calories, as I found myself feeling achy and twitchy even in my muscles.  Many days last week I found myself over my daily net calorie allotment, which means that I ate A LOT, as I ate all of my exercise calories and I burn on average maybe 700 cals a session depending on what I do.  Here's the problem, on those days I would go to bed and feel a wee bit guilty for going over even knowing that I was doing the right thing listening to my body.

So I it looks like a change is needed, and yet I have come to look at MFP as a bit of a security blanket, it helps me feel in control.  I'm not sure I am ready to just go cold turkey.  I like keeping track of what I eat so I know I haven't gone completely over board, although after about 5 months of tracking what I eat I think I have a pretty good idea of what to eat and what my body needs.  I think I could fly blind if I trusted myself.  So my ultimate goal is to do just that, fly blind, listen to my body, eat when I am hungry and stop when I am full.  But I'm not quite I have an idea though, an experiment if you will.  I  am going to adjust the MFP goal to maintenance so that my net daily calorie goal is higher, and more realistic for my energy requirements.  Will give this a try and see how it goes.  After all, this all about finding what works for me on this journey to living a healthy life.  

Monday, November 7, 2011

Strength Training

I am finding myself very inspired by images of strong muscular women like you see here.  Inspired by new friends that are making big dreams come true! I am starting to fall in love with strength training, its no longer the dreaded, boring, but necessary evil of my workout.  I dare say I am finding myself wondering if I could indeed have a back that looked like that? HEY MAYBE?

I spent the evening last night scouring the internet for a good strength workout to do this morning with my workout bud Jenn.  I am finding the training I received in my personal training course prepared me well for the beginner and intermediate strength training programs (think foundation, and build) and even the strength/burn workout (got that down to a science) but I am struggling with how to move into the 'STRENGTH' (advanced) program of training.

So last night I read and I read and I learned.  I book marked exercises and articles and walked away with a good workout for today thanks to the super awesome Workout Nirvana.    I also learned that like anything you have to take what you read with a grain of salt and navigate your own way and find what will work for you.  I am excited for this next stage of training and seeing what it will bring...hopefully me pulling my own full body weight up in a pull up!

Friday, November 4, 2011

Move More, Eat Well 2012: Big Picture Scrapbooking

 Cathy Zielske

I am so excited to share with you a new class coming to Big Picture Scrapbooking in January 2012, Move More, Eat Well 2012 with my favorite Crazy Cat Cathy Zielske!  Cathy has been sharing her journey to a healthy self on her blog for about 2 years now.  Watching her transform into a runner, knocking out mile after mile, seeing her post a pic of herself in her first running skirt....they made this former runner, who now weighed 258 pounds and got out of breath walking up the stairs dream that she too could do this!  It was watching Cathy day after day posting her runs that got me out there!  

But it wasn't just watching her turn into an awesome runner, it was that she was so damn REAL!  I loved that she shared her  crazy icee and gold fish cravings, that she took monthly progress pics of her self with the 'John' in the background, and that she 'struggled' just like we all do.  I have to say one of the things I am most proud of when I look back at all the posts Cathy has shared with us, is that you can see the evolution of her 'finding HER way' to a healthy self.  The title of her program used to be Move More, Eat LESS.  Notice how its changed to eat WELL?  Do you have any idea how happy that makes me?  I love that she has shared her progress with a great program like weight watchers (which I think in terms of 'programs' is one of the healthiest out there), to finding that it was no longer working for her and changing to more of a focus on eating whole foods.  She's never toted a party line, THIS IS HOW ITS DONE, she's simply shared her steps, MISSTEPS too, and with those steps she has made me laugh with her unique humour.

Not only has she shared her journey but she has invited so many other people to share their's in the form of a little community through the comments on her blog and on Facebook.  Now she's taking that a step further with Big Picture Scrapbooking and her class Move More, Eat Well 2012.  This class will create an intimate forum for classmates to share their journey's to a healthier self, while creating and documenting the journey in an album.  Cathy will have monthly lessons, projects, and a video.  There will be some online chats with Cathy too.  For more information on the class, check out this link.  

One other reason, I am totally stoked for this class is that I get the chance to share my own story with you in it later in the year!  How cool is that?  Do you have any idea how loudly I screamed in my kitchen when I got Cathy's message asking me to join in and share?  I swear I was hooting and hollering and crying.  The thought that someone I look up to so very much thought I was worthy of sharing my story filled me up with happiness and goosebumps!  

So please check out the link, the class is going to be filled with inspiring women (maybe a few men too) led by one funny, real, and inspiring Cathy Z!  PS.  you don't need to be a 'scrapbooker' to take part and ENJOY this class.  The project doesn't require a bunch of fancy frufru scrapbook stuff.  I would love to see my non-scrapbook friends par take in this class (hint hint lol) as I think you will love how documenting this journey and journalling will help you along the way.