Saturday, September 3, 2011
Sometimes its not an easy choice
Sometimes its not an easy choice, to tie on my running shoes and head out the door. I wanted so very much to stay in bed this morning when the clock hit 6:00am, especially since the kids were still asleep. At the time it seemed very unfair to have to drag myself out of bed to eat breakfast so I would have enough energy come 7am to go for my run. A run that I was making sure I did early enough to avoid the heat and also to accommodate the family going out on an adventure later in the day. Ryan and I have a system, where we take turns sleeping in on the weekend, and on holidays. I have not taken my sleep in day once this summer, I have gotten up early each time to either get out for my long run, or while on holiday to make sure I had time for breaky and coffee before hitting the gym. Its my choice not to sleep in, no one is placing this on me. But its not an easy choice. I want to lay in bed, in warm cozy sleep. But every time I get out there I am thankful I got out of bed. Its worth it. Running 19km this morning was believe it or not quite enjoyable.
Sometimes I don't think I give myself enough credit. I know I am lucky that as a stay at home mom I can workout during the day. I know that it would have been a much more difficult road to be lugging my bum out of bed to hit the gym in the early am or after a long day of work. I know I am lucky to be able to put the kids in the daycare at the gym and get a 'break'. I understand that I am very lucky that I actually enjoy exercising. I say these things to other people all the time. I say these things the same way we handle being given a compliment. "You look so pretty today"...."oh its the make up, I actually put on make up today." When people give us a compliment we down play it, we don't take ownership of the good. I think I down play the work that goes into what I do. There are many mornings when I don't want to go to the gym, when I don't want to drag the kids there, when I am too sore to go.
When the kids are sick and I can't make it to the gym, I put on an exercise video in the basement and sweat while trying not to break my leg tripping on the kid's toys. I run when I have a cold, I run when my allergies are so bad that I risk peeing my pants while sneezing, I go when I don't want to.
I'm not trying to sound like a warrior woman, or looking for a pat on the back (ok maybe just a little star sticker LOL). I just think that sometimes we spend a lot of our time and energy collecting excuses. We collect, gather, even horde excuses like rocks and boulders to build a mountain so big we can't bare to climb it. Here's the thing, it takes so much more effort to build that mountain then to just break through it.
So I ask this of you tomorrow morning when you wake up, start a new collection. Start a collection of accomplishments, you will be amazed at how much easier it is and how damn good it feels.