This is me just over a year ago. I am really really happy in this picture because I am at a class with Tim Holtz (for the non scrapbookers he's like Brad Pitt LOL). I am a size 22 in this picture. What you can't tell from this picture is that the change had already started within. I am really really close here to having that first 'click'. I am smiling in this picture even though I have peed with high hopes on yet another pregnancy test stick, only to find one line. I am smiling in this picture even though I agonized over what to wear to this event, and how to make myself look 'pretty' when I don't feel pretty. I am smiling in this picture even though my back hurt from sitting all day in the class. I am smiling in this picture even though my jeans are cutting into my belly and will leave a red welt later on. Quietly there is a war going on and I am about to win the first battle!
This is me today one whole year later. This is me holding my shoulders back and standing tall with confidence. I feel good (except for the days when I overdue it and yelp when I have to sit down on the potty LOL). I not only feel hopeful, but I feel as though anything is a possibility if I try hard enough. I feel the winds of change breezing in again. I want to help inspire and motivate other women to take those first few brave steps. I want to help them take that step again and again until it becomes a slow canter and then a confident gallop.