Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Disney Magic

I wonder if Disney Magic extends to not gaining weight while on a cruise?

The family and I leave Friday for a 7 night cruise aboard the Disney Magic. I am beyond excited for many reasons, seeing the magic through the kids eyes, the Disney shows, swimming in the ocean, the kids club activities that will allow Ryan and I sometime to relax, and of course the food! I hear that it isn't unheard of to gain 10 pounds on a cruise, but I wonder do those people look forward to a 5km race on Castaway Cay and running on the track over looking the ocean? This is a vacation and I am not going to worry about 'watching what I eat.' Hell, I am over the moon excited about someone else preparing my meals for 7days! That being said I think this 'new' Katie will go about things a bit differently than the old me would of. For starters, Ryan and I packed our running and workout gear and actually plan on using it and are excited to do so. I think at breakfast I will try to fill myself with mostly healthy food that is packed with nutrition to power me through our busy days. I know that we need to set an example for the kids who will very much be in need of food that will power them up for their excitment filled days and nights. Although, I am sure a muffin of some sort will be part of that plan LOL. I think lunch will be the same. I see myself 'indulging' more at dinner time and dessert. Did I mention that room service brings warm cookies and milk to your room before bed? Well that's the plan going in, and I not naive to think that will change. But I know I will be making an effort to enjoy yummy healthy food with my family while also indulging in all the treats to be had. Ryan and I are hoping to 'workout' 4 days. We figure working out 4 days while on a week vacation is pretty good. I figure our island days will be non workout days, with the exception of Castaway Cay where we plan on a 5km run (and biking). But even on our island days I am sure we will find a way to stay active. I picture myself doing the BAYWATCH RUN sprints in the sand on the beach and playing tag with the kids (you had better not be laughing!) Not to mention that I am sure we will be doing a lot of walking and carrying of the children, so that's strength training and endurance right there! Regardless of what happens I am looking forward to enjoying everything that this trip has to offer and will not let myself obsess about weight while there or when I get home. If I gain a little weight so be it, after all Ryan and I have a half marathon to start training for so I am sure we can find a way to work off our cruise pounds :)

Friday, February 11, 2011

Mug Shot- update

Got to love Joe Fresh, $16 for a new workout shirt makes this budget conscious Mom happy. Had a great run today. I ran 5km on the treadmill with a level 6 hill program, which means the highest incline was 5%. I kept up a great pace, running it in 35min 45 sec, which without an incline used to be a great time for me! I ran that today with a ton of HILLS! I felt so strong and fit when I got home I couldn't help but take a photo of myself.
This photo is to show me that even though I had an emotional eating day yesterday I am still worthy of fighting hard to be fit. That I am fit and healthy even if I do have a jiggly pouch. This photo is giving my 'Fat Voice' the finger.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

clothes: do they make the person

Some say clothes make the person. Well they certainly do effect the way you feel. Wear your day to day frumpy 'mom' uniform and you feel like a frumpy mom. Put on your 'hot titty' bra and you feel sexy and hot. Its as simple as that, or is it?

Today I went shopping for some shorts for our upcoming cruise. I went in thinking I have lost weight, I feel good, I had a killer spin class today...I ROCK. I picked up the size 14 shorts. I tried to squeeze my POUCH into the shorts and literally had to stuff it in and pull with all my might to get the zipper done up. I guess I haven't lost as much weight as I thought. Kayleigh even yells out for all in the change rooms to hear "MOM those are pinching you." I swear I wish she had yelled out that I had farted. I tried on pair after pair of pants today and nothing looked good. I walked away feeling so deflated. Let me tell you I wanted to stop and buy some chocolate.

Later in the evening I decided to go through my closet and try on the things I had bought recently and some of my older clothes and lay out what I was going to wear on the cruise. I put on some of the shirts I had bought last summer and thought would still look good even though I had lost weight. Oh my goodness can we say CIRCUS TENT LOOK. I asked Ryan to come up and give me his opinion and he laughed. I tried on a pair of pants from last summer for him and we were both amazed at just how much my body had changed. Its felt so good to have concrete evidence right there. Its so easy to get caught in the distortion of the scale games, the size games, the I just ate the whole bag of Gourmet Candy Game...the games I play. I was actually feeling down about myself today because I couldn't fit in a size 14. I let that NUMBER do the same thing I have let the NUMBER on the scale do to me in the past. I let it undermine my self worth. I walked into the store today feeling like a FIT, Healthy, Mom and I left feeling like a fat frumpy mom who always eats to much candy.
So I take you back to my earlier question, do clothes make the woman, does the number make the woman? Certainly not! But when and how do we start to intuitively KNOW our self worth? How do we tune into ourselves? How do we quiet our critics? I don't have the answer to that, but I think I am getting closer.

PS. Again, at the gym today a woman got on the scale and then asked the women in the room if they thought it was accurate. She said that if it was she was going to cry. Again may I say this was a thin woman. Luckily, today a few of us started to talk about how stupid the scale was, and how it messes with our minds. I suggested we have a scale trashing party!