Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Roller Coaster Ride and Dress Maker's Suck
The last 4 days have been a roller coaster ride of emotion for me. I got sick Saturday afternoon and went downhill fast. I spent that night throwing up. Sunday I spent the majority of the day in bed, and even missed the Santa Claus Parade :( Monday I was feeling better but not 100%. It was I could handle to get the girls to and from school and tidy a bit. Tuesday I was back to normal, but Kasey was sick with a cold, and with my having been sick, and Kayleigh sick last week another day stuck inside was hard. All 3 of us were crawling the walls and I was very very short tempered. Ryan came home last night and I ran out the door to the gym. I did an hour pump class in a really hot room (the circulation was broken), although it felt good to work out again I felt weak. After the gym, I had a little showdown with Kayleigh at bed time that led me to yell and then later melt down in Ryan's arms. I went to bed last night feeling spent, physically and mentally. I slept all night long and so did the kids (that is very rare). This morning I woke up with a renewed energy and faith in my being patient with the kids. I took Kayleigh to the gym with me this morning and she didn't want to go. I explained why Mommy I had to (to be healthy and sane), and told her after I would do something of her choosing with her. She went APE SHIT when I tried to leave her. I knew that I had to break clean and get out the door. I told the ladies to get me in 10 min if she was still upset. I bee lined it to the treadmill. I didn't get water. I didn't even get my ipod out. For all I knew I had 10 min, and I really needed those 10 min. I got on, didn't warm up just started running, and running fast. At 10 min I paused and snuck back to the kids room and she was happily playing as if nothing ever happened. I got back on the treadmill with water and music and did speed intervals for 20 min. It was amazing. I felt so fast. I felt so good. I felt like I was sweating out all my frustrations, and negativity. This afternoon I went dress shopping with Kasey to find something for Ryan's gala. I tried on a size 14 dress for shits and giggles and holy BAT MAN it fit! It really fit! It wasn't even tight. But it also didn't look good on me LOL ! Go Figure. I did find THE DRESS though and I love it and I think it looks great on me and its a 1x. I tired some dresses on at Sears last week and I had to wear a size 20! HELLO PEOPLE WHO MAKE DRESSES...can you please standardize your sizes because you messing with our minds! So that being said I will take the size 14 dress that fit as a victory even though it looked like heck on me and go find some new dress shoes.