So after yesterday's big win I did something really stupid today. Yep I did and I bet you know what I did. I stood on the stupid hunk of metal pictured above in my trash. One pound gained. I felt horrible. All my successes out the window. Didn't matter that I felt amazing before I stood on it. Didn't matter that I think I look good (can you say that about yourself, because I do think I look better LOL). Didn't matter that I span my arse off at spin class today and had sweat pouring down my back. All that diminished because I let the scale do that.
What's even worse is that I stood before that scale like those idiots in the bible that worshiped false idols. Like someone making an offering, I stood before it waiting for it to validate my self worth.
If I am really truly going to change my life, and LIVE IT. If I am truly going to let go of this weight struggle and be healthy mind and body I just can't do the scale. I am like a drug addict, I can't even have it in the house. I thought about asking Ryan first, but than I thought no this is going now while I am strong. I am sure he would rather have a healthy wife than a stupid hunk of metal scale.
So there it is, IN THE TRASH!